Day 9

May 4, 2011 Back to NJ, back to ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘ฆ. Was this real life?
Did this past weekend just happen?
Was this guy ever going to speak to me again? I mean the energy, the chemistry, the vibe is all there… but the circumstances, the embarrassment and shame I felt, the night we spent together… was it enough? Was it ๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘”โ„Ž๐‘ก? And then… I thought about the older lady selling roses in Miami. I thought about how he rushed outside to go buy all her roses ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘’…
his kindness, his willingness to do what I asked…
then I remembered the rose!! I forgot the rose!! I wanted to save that first rose, but in the hustle of getting home, I left it behind.
As I wondered if he was ever gonna call me again, I decided to text him. โ€œI left my rose in Miami :(โ€œ
โ€œHello sunshine โ€, he replied . โ€œAre you working in Englewood today?โ€ โ€œYes, I amโ€ I replied.
โ€œI will stop by and see you. Let me know when you have a break.โ€ Me: deep breathe. โ€œOk!!!!โ€
Benjamin stopped by that afternoon with a single rose from 7-eleven. Lol it made me giggle. I turned to him and
said โ€œyou can never stop buying me roses or flowers. If you do, Iโ€™ll know something is wrong.โ€ โ€œI promiseโ€ he said.
We kissed in the parking lot. The kiss Like the very first night we kissed.
It was electric. It was magnetic. I felt safe in his arms.
He made me feel seen. The Goddess in me was in full effect around him. We both had to go.
Me: When will I see you again? Ben: soon
I went back up to the salon I was working out of and into the break room. The girls started to ooh and ahhh over my rose. Then someone asked… โ€œis that a price tag on there?โ€
Me: with a giggle Yes, he bought it at 7-11.
Girl: thatโ€™s tacky. Why would anyone buy a rose at 7-11? Me: itโ€™s one more rose than you have .
When we are happy we exude an energy that people donโ€™t like. Most people are
not happy, so when you show up smiling and excited someone will try and tear you down.
In this life we need to learn to quiet the outside noise. Learn to use your breath. Long inhales and exhales… and find your power in standing up for you.
That rose was so special for ๐‘š๐‘’. I donโ€™t care where he bought it or where heโ€™s bought the thousands of roses Iโ€™ve received over the last 10 years.
Someone wouldโ€™ve heard that comment and taken offense to the 7-11 rose. Imagine?
Perception of a situation is a deadly weapon. We have the ability to see what we want or what we need….
Iโ€™m falling in love but the world is conspiring against me right now…
What happens on day 10?



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