May 4, 2011 Back to NJ, back to 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦. Was this real life?
Did this past weekend just happen?
Was this guy ever going to speak to me again? I mean the energy, the chemistry, the vibe is all there… but the circumstances, the embarrassment and shame I felt, the night we spent together… was it enough? Was it 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡? And then… I thought about the older lady selling roses in Miami. I thought about how he rushed outside to go buy all her roses 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒…
his kindness, his willingness to do what I asked…
then I remembered the rose!! I forgot the rose!! I wanted to save that first rose, but in the hustle of getting home, I left it behind.
As I wondered if he was ever gonna call me again, I decided to text him. “I left my rose in Miami :(“
“Hello sunshine ”, he replied . “Are you working in Englewood today?” “Yes, I am” I replied.
“I will stop by and see you. Let me know when you have a break.” Me: deep breathe. “Ok!!!!”
Benjamin stopped by that afternoon with a single rose from 7-eleven. Lol it made me giggle. I turned to him and
said “you can never stop buying me roses or flowers. If you do, I’ll know something is wrong.” “I promise” he said.
We kissed in the parking lot. The kiss Like the very first night we kissed.
It was electric. It was magnetic. I felt safe in his arms.
He made me feel seen. The Goddess in me was in full effect around him. We both had to go.
Me: When will I see you again? Ben: soon
I went back up to the salon I was working out of and into the break room. The girls started to ooh and ahhh over my rose. Then someone asked… “is that a price tag on there?”
Me: with a giggle Yes, he bought it at 7-11.
Girl: that’s tacky. Why would anyone buy a rose at 7-11? Me: it’s one more rose than you have .
When we are happy we exude an energy that people don’t like. Most people are
not happy, so when you show up smiling and excited someone will try and tear you down.
In this life we need to learn to quiet the outside noise. Learn to use your breath. Long inhales and exhales… and find your power in standing up for you.
That rose was so special for 𝑚𝑒. I don’t care where he bought it or where he’s bought the thousands of roses I’ve received over the last 10 years.
Someone would’ve heard that comment and taken offense to the 7-11 rose. Imagine?
Perception of a situation is a deadly weapon. We have the ability to see what we want or what we need….
I’m falling in love but the world is conspiring against me right now…
What happens on day 10?