Day 33

May 29, 2011 I woke up early, I barely slept.
What was happening in my life right now? Was this π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ or was this π‘€π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘”?
It 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑑 so right between us, but around everyone else it felt π‘ π‘œ π‘€π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘”.
I didn’t want to be the reason why a marriage broke up. I didn’t want that kind of responsibility, karma… but at the same token I’m not π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ reason.
I dropped off Mikey and anxiously went home to wait for Ben to come over.
I literally attacked him when he came. I just wanted him 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑒𝑑 him to hold me. To tell me it would all be ok. We went to my room and sat on the bed. He burst into tears and so did I.
Me: I’m scared
Ben: Me too. But it’s going to be π‘œπ‘˜π‘Žπ‘¦.
We held each other and cried. I then told him about my bbq experience the day before. Ben: Shil, our love is special. Time will show everyone. I promise you.
Me: I know…
Ben: Do you trust?
Me: I do, but I’m scared.
Ben: Breathe. Patience, persistence, positivity. You and me in the end….
What happens tomorrow?? Pic LA at The Ivy 06/2019



It is my pleasure to work with you on your emotional, mental, and physical being. I’m here to help you find the balance and connection between your mind, body and soul. We were all brought here for a reason and to fulfill a purpose. It’s time to become the best version of YOU. You deserve it and it is my mission in life to help you achieve that. I truly believe you have the power to create the life you’ve always desired.- and I can help you. I’m looking forward to learning and growing with you! XO Shilamida

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