Day 32

May 28, 2011 It was Memorial Day weekend and Mikey and I we’re headed to a bbq at my brothers.
π“πžπ±π­ 𝐀π₯𝐞𝐫𝐭:
𝐁𝐞𝐧: I love you little spoon. Together, Forever… Me:
I arrived at my brothers house and thought, today is the day that I will tell π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘¦π‘œπ‘›π‘’. But what was I going to say? I have a π‘π‘œπ‘¦π‘“π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘›π‘‘? 𝐴 π‘šπ‘Žπ‘›π‘“π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘›π‘‘? 𝐴 π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ?
Did I tell them he had a 𝑀𝑖𝑓𝑒? That he was leaving his wife for π’Žπ’†?
𝑨𝒉𝒉𝒉𝒉 was this real life?? Who even has π‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘ π‘’ kinds of conversations?? At some point during the party I spilled the beans.
(Everyone will be referred to as friend, although their were multiple π‘π‘’π‘œπ‘π‘™π‘’ involved in this conversation…) Me: I’m seeing someone…
Friend: oh yeah? Serious? Me: 𝐼 π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘˜ π‘ π‘œ
Friend: you think? That means it’s nothing. Me: No it’s something
Friend: you wouldn’t think, you would π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€
Me: I know!
Friend: You know what? Me: I know this is real
Friend: oh yeah how do you know?
Me: (pressured, triggered ready to implode) because he’s leaving his wife for me (I said it out loud.) Friend: Ohhh you’re a home wrecker?? (All eyes on me)
Me: I’m not a home wrecker Friend: π‘Œπ‘œπ‘’ broke up a marriage
Me: I didn’t break up a marriage. I met a man in a broken marriage. There’s a difference Friend: yeah right he’s probably a jigalow.
Me: a what??
Friend: He probably has a bunch of girlfriends and this is the story he tells
Me: it’s time for us to go…
I left there π‘ π‘œ upset. I was shaking. My heart was racing. What did they know? They didn’t know what I π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€. Ben is not a jigalow or whatever they called him. What is that anyway??
π“πžπ±π­ 𝐀π₯𝐞𝐫𝐭:
𝐁𝐞𝐧: I hope you’re having a great day little spoon.
Me: it’s terrible. Everyone judged me. They called me a home wrecker. I’m having an anxiety attack.
Ben: breathe. My wife won’t speak to me. It’s ok. It’s going to be ok. Trust. Together forever. I can’t wait to see you.
Me: ok. When will I see you again?
Ben: I’m going to work tomorrow, can you get Mikey covered? Me: I’ll see what I can do. Thank you.
Ben: no princess, thank you. I love you.



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