Day 25

Today is Day 25 Saturday May 21, 2011 but to be honest I don’t remember what happened on this day so I’ll give you this instead…

Ultimately this whole relationship was a manifestation of my mind. I would lay in my bed and dream about what life
π‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘ be like for me. I was a broke single mom. I knew I deserved better. I knew I desired more. I fantasized about being someone’s trophy wife.
I honestly did. I was grateful I was a trophy wife some days and then I was grateful that I was a successful badass entrepreneur on others, all while eating $1.99 subway sandwiches for a week so that I had enough money to pay my bills.
Deep down I yearned for more. I was grateful for a man that loved me. I was grateful for a man that desired me. I was grateful
For a man that loved to travel and have fun! I was grateful for a partner in this life. I was grateful for a man that worshipped the ground I walked on…
I was grateful for all the things that he is but I forgot to be grateful for a man that didn’t snore, didn’t like football and most importantly I forgot to ask for a single man. Because of that, I/we had to live through many lessons, judgments, criticism, haters, shamers but our love always prevailed! Always! He had an unwavering faith in us that I trusted. In all of my feminine.
Ben was everything I dreamed of and more because the love that he gives me is more than I ever understood in this lifetime and for that I am beyond grateful.
I tell you the pieces of our story because I know you connect to the feelings of shame, embarrassment, guilt… And for some of you, you can’t move passed that. Or the judgment of me… I want you to know that regardless of where you are at this moment and what sin you’ve committed, or thoughts that you think, you are allowed to forgive yourself and be forgiven! It doesn’t matter what other people think.
That is π’‡π’“π’†π’†π’…π’π’Ž. π‘Όπ’π’•π’Šπ’Žπ’‚π’•π’† π’‡π’“π’†π’†π’…π’π’Ž is to love yourself so hard that you’re allowed to do things different than how society tells us to live.
There is no greater power than love and we are the luckiest people in the world.
Your love story is out there, your every desire is awaiting your energy to align to it, being different is ok, it’s actually necessary to live at this frequency.
How about this before and after? Pretty incredible glow up for 10 years! I am grateful we are getting younger everyday
Happy Anniversary Benjamin Lover



It is my pleasure to work with you on your emotional, mental, and physical being. I’m here to help you find the balance and connection between your mind, body and soul. We were all brought here for a reason and to fulfill a purpose. It’s time to become the best version of YOU. You deserve it and it is my mission in life to help you achieve that. I truly believe you have the power to create the life you’ve always desired.- and I can help you. I’m looking forward to learning and growing with you! XO Shilamida

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