May 14, 2011 Last night was 𝑨𝒎𝒂𝒛𝒊𝒏𝒈. Intimate and sweet. Passionate and loving… I was on cloud 9.
Today would be the day that I tell my mom my little 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑡. I mean it wasn’t really a secret but I also wasn’t shouting it from the rooftops.
I drove over to her house and sat down in her kitchen. My face must’ve told a dozen stories… My mom has a strong Russian accent so imagine this conversation…
Mama: Vwhy you look like that?
Me: like what? with a smirk from ear to ear Mama: Vwhat’s wrong with you?
Me: why does something always have to be 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔? Mama: You are acting strange
Me: I met someone Mama: okay.
Me: I think I’m in love Mama: oh yeah sure
Me: but… Mama: yeah
Me: he’s married Mama: 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒛𝒚?
Me: well we both know the answer to that Mama: Vwhat’s wrong with you?
Me: nothing he loves me and I love him
Mama: you love him? you think your the only one? Me:
Mama: you don’t think he has other girlfriends Me: um no
Mama: no? You sure?
Me: I thought I was sure until this moment Me: he wants to take me to Puerto Rico Mama: you lost your mind
Me: I want to go Mama: and Mikey?
Me: he will stay with you
Mama: Shoora (my Russian name) you thinking twice about this? Me: yes! This 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑠 right.
Mama: okay Me: ok???
Mama: you 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑧𝑦 but okay Me: yayyy thank you
This was just the beginning of made up scenarios of my life presented to me by the people around me. I was going
to have to think and 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 into a lot of things that were being said to me.
After I left my mom that day, I had a lot of doubt. What if she was right? What if I wasn’t the only one? That didn’t feel right… did he cheat before? Do I ask? Do I 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 to know?
I texted him.
Me: Hi! I just told my mom about you Ben: good how did that go?
Me: great she told me I was one of many Ben: and do you believe that?
Ben: good I’ll call you later beautiful. I’m coaching baseball . Me:
Ben: Happy Anniversary Princess Swoon – 𝑩𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆
Photo 7/11/14 Grand Cayman Islands.